My ideal scenario: I plan something, tell others about it, then execute it with perfect timing.
My real scenario: God puts dreams in our heart. We begin to pray about them. Things start happening that are way beyond our control… and may not even involve us.
Case in point:
We have been praying about going to Russia for about 2 years. Almost everything in our life has been leading up to that. At Christmas this year, Joel quit his job and I returned to work, so he could pursue a degree in Russian studies at UH. In March, we went to the Hope for CEE conference, where I really began to feel direction on what to begin doing for a move in 3-4 years… start learning about the city (Rostov na Donu), sharing the information with others so they will pray, building a team of prayers and a team of go-ers…
Honestly, I was ready to put all my energy into this.
Then along came our little angel Darin Michael. And my time has been reassigned.
But the work for Russia is not waiting. I barely have time to pray, but God is still preparing people. Obviously this is a good thing. But it also feels like I am left behind and like it is very out of my control. These are feelings I don’t really like.
What’s happening is good – our friend Jessica has become interested in joining our team to work in Rostov. She has started planning a trip to get exposure to the country. And she will possibly even meet our native Russian teammember, Sam – he might translate for the trip she will go on in December.
The same thing is happening with the church plant that God has laid on Joel’s heart for here in Houston. I can pray for it, but Mike & Tammi are making connections, telling people, enlisting possible co-workers. Once again, this is really good. But it is also overwhelming because I am not very involved.
All I can figure is God is teaching me to be content to pray, and then watch Him pull together the logistics. Honestly, I didn’t have a clue how to pull together all this stuff. And now God is doing an awesome job. I should be glad I get to know about it at all.