September is halfway over and I can’t say I am sorry to see it go. This month has been hard. I don’t have a positive outlook on life right now. I need hope.
I am struggling with praying right now. It seems like when I need to pray and seek God the most, it is the hardest to do. Of course, I can say the prayers. I am just not doing well at listening in faith for the voice of God.
I am also struggling with community. My community is essential during times of crisis like this. But my human nature is driving me to push them away. Help is a lot more welcome when it is optional; when it is required to survive, it is hard to accept.
God, I need you. I need your outlook on life. I need hope that even when I can’t figure out a solution, there is one. I need faith in your Kingdom, your power, your glory. I really need help loving, and being lovable.